How Christian Science healed me of suicidal thoughts
I spent the vast majority of my existence before coming into Christian Science with constant suicidal thoughts. This is how having suicidal thoughts presented to me in my past: For every decision I felt I needed to make, somewhere down the list of “choices” was suicide. For example, even if I simply wanted to get lunch, I would think, “Okay, do I want pizza, or a hamburger, or tacos, or should I just kill myself.” That “choice” always seemed like it was trying to be first pick, and since I did not have a thought filled with God, good, it quite nearly succeeded.
The way that Christian Science healed this was through my being taught that I am not to look to my own understanding, but rather to look to God for every answer. So, using that lunchtime example, my only thought now is, “What should I do for lunch, Father?” Once I started living this way, suicide stopped being a part of the daily conversation, and it was replaced with a desire to live by His Word and divine inspiration alone. This has been a great healing for me.