How Christian Science healed me of self-hatred
I've often been told I need to learn to love myself before I can love anyone or anything else, but my first few decades where I was seemingly trained to hate myself have made this feel impossible. Despite the extremely negative feeling about myself I had, Christian Science has been able to heal me to the point where I actually felt pretty neutral about myself, and this still feels like a huge, huge victory. Because of this, I decided to leave learning to "love myself" as a future concern.
Then more recently it occurred to me that since God is the only source of love and of truth, and man is not a personal creator, I could no more "love myself" than I could "truth myself." But what I can do, with Christian Science and as God's directs, is to be ready each moment all day long to express and reflect the love and truth that He is sending me. To me, the fact that God entrusts us with such responsibilities, and gives us the means to fulfill those responsibilities, is an amazing blessing. And, to top it off, some of that love and truth God sends throughout the day is actually meant for me, which is yet another daily blessing, and this allows me to trust that I am receiving what God alone can give, in the way He wants me to have it.
I tried many things over the years, but only Christian Science has been able to heal me and to help me see the unreality and nothingness of my human past, and to accept and embrace the ultimate truth that God loves me and all, and always has.